The Truth is.....I'm not Wonderful

People say it to me! 'You're so wonderful. You look after all those kids, your husband and have those cottages!' Sigh...

I'm not wonderful. I'm a Mum, a wife and business owner. I set about doing what I need to do to keep it all happening. And sometimes doing all that does not make me feel wonderful. It makes me tired-ask my husband- and sometimes it all makes me feel like I've been swallowed up and the real me has been lost. This is not a wonderful feeling.


I am not the only mum walking this earth feeling this way. You may have 1,2,3,4,5 or 8 or 10 or 12 14 16 19 kids (19 is the most I have heard of or are the Duggars up to 20. I've lost count) kids. And doing it all is sometimes a soulless task. Shimmer and you've disappeared.

For those who don't know my story. My other blog Bless-ed Baby is about having my fifth child and the sidetrip it took me on. I'm writing my memoirs about the year my Bless-ed fifth child was born. Part of my story is realising that I'd not been true to myself. In my life of having a husband and children I'd forgotten who I was.

Nearly three years on I'm realising I've not lived up to the promises I'd made to myself. I started off well but again I've let it all slide. So I've set up this blog to be my marker of self.

Not only am going to run with my kids, husband and everyday life. I'm going to run for me and chase my dreams.

;)Cathryn

PS Thank you if you have read this and have ever said I'm wonderful.I do appreciate the fact that sometimes others notice all that you do. There are so many mums out there who I think are wonderful too <3

PSS Photo is of my 5 and my hubby.

Welcome to my other Blog!

It's Tuesday. It's been a week since I went for a run. I got up that morning and organised myself- answered 4 emails and got 3 kids ready for school and 1 kid for preschool. I dressed myself for a run then dropped them off at their respective schools. Then I headed out for my run!

Well, at first I was only walking as I'm easing myself back into it. But as I warmed up I did some interval running. Short bursts of running with quick paced walks. The sky was overcast and misty. For February it wasn't hot. In fact it was perfect for being outdoors.

I headed out of our sleepy little village and a couple of k's out I turned to head back and the mist turned to a fine refreshing rain. I ran about a kilometre with the misty rain wetting my face. I ran. I ran without a care or a business or a kid in the world.I ran and I was me. Nature lapping at my face with misty rain, my body moving the best it had in months (another story in itself) and the freedom of moving with blood flowiing and pumping taking everything away for awhile.

I stopped and heaved for breath. Yes, I have a long way to go. But gee, it felt good.

Back home I answered more emails, made phone calls, went to town to appointments, came home started dinner in the slow cooker, picked up kids from school, took my daughter her dance lesson, came home did some more things for dinner, went back out and picked up son from his friends, came home finished dinner then took son to Cubs, came home bathed kids, went out again picked up son from Cubs, came home and put them all to bed. Then sat and wondered which part of my day was the run!

I haven't stopped running since last week. Today I went for a run. I ran like an old woman!

This is my journal of me trying to run, finding time for me and running after my 5 kids and my life!